Are you new here?

I decided to write this post after having spent the past few years getting acquainted with the subtle nuances of Army life. I am definitely no expert, but these pieces of advice are what I have felt have helped me embrace this journey. I will say that so far, I am one of the lucky ones, Brendan has not been deployed yet and our longest separation has only (I know to civilians this is abnormal to say only right now) been six months. I have an immense amount of respect and admiration for my friends and those military spouses I don't know who have kept the home fires burning during long (and usually multiple) delployments.

Hi, you must be new,

I might not know you but I feel like I do. I was you only three short years ago. In the grand scheme of things I'm still new. I don't know everything, but I do know how you feel. You are probably miles away from friends and family (because Army posts aren't usually located in convenient locations). You might be in a new area of the country or even in a different country getting used to not only the culture shock but also the subtle differences between the civilian world and this new military world. You are doing this while your husband leaves you alone in this strange place for a few weeks for training or possibly for a 9 month deployment. I want you to know you're not alone; Even though you probably feel very alone right now. I also want to give you some pieces of advice that I wish I had taken from the beginning in hopes that it will make it easier for you.

Plug in. Plug in no matter if you're going to be there for 3 months or 3 years. Get involved with the FRG or ask your husband to introduce you to the wives of his married co-workers, get involved at your church. When we first moved to Ft. Benning, I was determined to steer clear of the dreaded FRG that I had heard so many horror stories about and was convinced I had enough friends and didn't need any more. I was wrong. Although we were only there for a year, I ended up making some of by best friends during that year. When you move somewhere and then your husband is gone for 10 out of the next 16 weeks, then for 6 months straight. You need friends; and more importantly you need friends that understand and that are going through the same thing. Don't believe what you hear about FRG's or other army wives, I mean you're pretty normal right? There have to be other normal wives for you to hang out with. Plus, when they say "it's a small army" they're right. Chances are you'll run into some of these women again.

Ask for help when you need it, give help when you can. Being far away from family can be frustrating and sometimes life doesn't happen when it's convenient. Babies seem to have a way of being born as soon as you move to a new area or while husbands are deployed, and things have a tendency of breaking as soon as our husbands head to the field for a week. If someone offers to help, accept it, and if you see someone in need of a meal, a lawn mowed or just a bottle of wine and a shoulder to lean on, be that person. You'll learn quickly that the army is a family and just as our husbands take care of their guys and we take care of our own too.

If you don't know, ask. There is nothing wrong with not knowing something whether it be an acronym (how are we supposed to know that DONSA stands for "day of no significant activity" aka a day off?) or what to wear to a social gathering (each unit varies depending on the preferences of the commander and his wife). I still ask a million questions about everything.

Try not to get angry with your husband for circumstances he can't control. It's frustrating after a long week when your husband calls you and says he has to go in on a Saturday, or when it seems like his phone rings as soon as you fall asleep and he has to get up and go back to work. Try not to get mad at him, chances are he isn't pleased about it either. Sometimes it's hard to keep things in perspective when we look at their training calendars and realize they will be gone more weeks than home over the next few months. It's hard to remember that chances are, they didn't make the schedule, and the importance of their training. It's something I struggle with, especially now with having a baby that misses his daddy and a mama that sometimes just needs a break, but when I get upset I try to remember that Brendan misses us too.

Don't be offended when you realize that your husband wants to deploy. This is a tough one. For the most part, our husbands want to deploy, especially if they haven't yet (from what I've heard the novelty wears off after the first time around). The way it was explained to me was: imagine training every day for years for a marathon that you never get to run. That's what they feel like sometimes. The fact that they want to deploy doesn't translate into, "I want to leave you behind for nine months," even though we sometimes can twist it into that. Our guys are a rare breed that take pride in their job of defending our country, so as much as we want them here you have to understand and respect their desire to serve overseas.

Always remember what it felt like to be "the new girl". The best thing about the military community is people are always so welcoming and it's easy to connect if you want to. I think this is because since we move so often that everyone remembers what it's like to be the new people in town. That mutual experience quickly turns strangers into friends and friends into family. So in a year or even six months when you spot someone looking a little lost and out of place, remember that you were them not so long ago, and in a couple of years you will probably be them again.

Don't get frustrated or jealous if some of your non military friends don't understand. Sometimes it's hard to explain for what seems like the millionth time why your husband is gone again, or why it's easier to reschedule things (like weddings) than hope the army will give you time off. Chances are if they're asking questions it's their way of trying to figure out how best to help you, so try to express your needs to them. It's easy to sometimes be jealous of our friends who can actually choose where they live and seem to have endless quality time with their spouses, but different isn't always better. The grass is always greener, right? The Army isn't forever. Eventually you will be able to choose where you live and will have time to spend together. Embrace where you are now and enjoy the time you do have.

Always make your marriage your number one priority. Unfortunately sometimes our husbands have to put the needs of the Army in front of the needs of their families. It's frustrating, and sometimes you might even feel like your husband is mentally checked out of the relationship and constantly in another place. These are the times when you must be the one to press into the marriage even more and remind your husband that you will be there long after he ends his time in the army. Often you might feel like you are giving more of yourself than he is, but that is what marriage was designed to be. Love is not a conditional thing, you cannot love someone because of what it gives you, you have to love them regardless of what they are able to give at the time. Although this is difficult, I feel extremely blessed to be in a situation that really shows me what unconditional love looks like lived out.

I hope that you will take some of this advice and that it helps you feel less overwhelmed. Marriage is great, and so is being a military spouse. You will get to travel the world and have the adventure of a lifetime with the love of your life! So have fun creating your memories and enjoy everyone you meet along the way.

I Choose Him

On Sunday, Brendan sent me this blog post to read. In the post, the writer explains that her husband is not her soul-mate because the entire idea of soul-mates is not biblical, and I agree. We are not placed into marriage to fit each other like a glove and gaze into each other's eyes, we were placed in marriage to glorify and honor God by keeping our covenant to love and cherish each other no matter what. It was really refreshing for us to have a conversation in which we both said, "No, I wasn't destined to be with you since before I even met you, but I choose you."

 While I did't grow up in an evangelical youth culture like the author of the other blog post had, I did grow up watching a lot of Disney movies and romantic comedies which all kind of end with the same scene: something terrible happens, someone almost dies, then the characters realize they're supposed to be together and then fireworks randomly shoot off and the lovers kiss and sail off into the sunset together. Totally not realistic, but I remember watching those movies at sleepovers and then discussing with my friends all of the qualities my future husband had to have, which was basically the equivalent of a not-cartoon version of Prince Charming who looked like Freddie Prinz Jr.

So, he might not actually be Prince Charming but he is pretty cute.

God gives you Christ as the foundation of your marriage. 

“Welcome one another, therefore, as Christ has welcomed 

you, for the glory of God” (Rom. 15:7). . . . Don’t insist 

on your rights, don’t blame each other, don’t judge or 

condemn each other, don’t find fault with each other, 

but accept each other as you are, and forgive each other 

every day from the bottom of your hearts.

Dietrich Bonhoeffer

Letters and Papers from Prison, 31–32

When I was younger, I would analyze my boyfriends, trying to pick out signs to see if they were "the one"... obviously I got mixed signals from all of the stupid things I imagined along the way like if they showed up wearing blue then it was meant to be and then they showed up wearing a color that was almost blue. As I grew up and went through a few serious relationships, I started to realize that it really isn't about finding "the one" it's about choosing "the one".  It's about figuring out which qualities actually matter, and getting past the less desirable ones that don't, because God and I both know that I have some undesirable qualities tucked away too.

After our conversation Sunday, I've been thinking about it while he's been gone... so why did I choose Brendan? To be honest, Brendan kind of chose me first. He was the first to say "I love you," and he bought me the engagement ring, but as he was choosing me, I was choosing him too. As most of our friends know, Brendan and I did not know each other very long before we got engaged and married. In fact, we met January 29, 2011 and were engaged July 9, so less than 6 months.

For me, choosing Brendan was something I didn't even realize I was doing until I had already chose him. I actually didn't even want to date him when I first met him because I knew he was in the Army, but I did. I said I would never give up my career for a guy, but I did. I never thought I would move to the South, but I did. I don't say these things to make myself look good or pump myself up, I say them because I was choosing to be with Brendan which was more important than those other things.

I was never one of those girls that had a list of qualities written down that I consulted upon meeting an eligible suitor... I just kind of figured out along the way from too many bad dates what I didn't like and Brendan ended up showing me what qualities were important to me. I did, however, compile a list this week of some of the qualities that I found in Brendan that helped me decide that he was, in fact, the one I wanted to choose.

• He is someone I want to follow-  Brendan knows where his life is headed, he's always prepared and always has a plan. He knows what he wants, and when he makes a decision he inspires me to want to follow. Within our first month of dating I knew I would follow him anywhere... which is good because with his job path there really aren't many places that are off the table
• He makes me feel safe- It doesn't matter what we are doing, Brendan always makes sure that I am safe. Whether it's holding my hand if we are in an area that he doesn't like, or making sure that when we bike ride he's closer to the traffic, he makes me feel safer. Just this past weekend, he decided he didn't like that we don't have a peephole on our front door so he went to Lowe's, picked up a peephole, drilled a hole in the door and now we have a peephole so I can see who's ringing the bell before I open the door.
• He is honest- This is key, I trust Brendan, I believe every word that comes out of his mouth because he has never given me a reason to doubt him. I think it's safe to say we've all been lied to at some point in our lives and it stinks, it makes us have trust issues. This is not to say that later down the road he might slip up and tell a white lie (not that those are okay!) or I might just get insecure, but I am confident that Brendan would never give me a reason to question his honesty.
• He is Kind-  One of the first things Brendan told me when we were dating is that he never wanted to be the reason I cried, that was the most kind thing anyone has ever said to me.  Unfortunately he did not know what he was getting himself into with that tall order, especially with a crazy now pregnant hormonal wife. While there have been their fair share of tears, and I usually stay upset longer than I need to because I'm stubborn, he is still kind. He never withholds his affection from me, he kisses me when he walks in at the end of the day, holds my hand before we go to bed no matter if we were fighting 5 minutes earlier, and hugs me goodbye every morning before he leaves.
• He knows the worst of me and loves me anyways- There were things that I have told Brendan that I was positive were going to send him packing, but every time he has surprised me by hugging me and reassuring me that he loves me. 

He even lets me feel tall by letting me stand on benches!

Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things,endures all things. 

1 Corinthians 13: 7 

A big reason why relationships fail is because people wake up one day and don't make the choice to love the one they're with. Then they keep making that choice every day until they feel that there is no choice at all and they think that they just cannot love that person anymore.

When you get married to someone, it brings out all of the things you hate about yourself that you thought you could hide, and all of the things they thought they could hide. By choosing to love your spouse you are saying, "I see your imperfections and I accept those things too", if it didn't, why does Paul in his letter to the Corinthians tell us that "love bears all things... and endures all things"? When you choose to love someone every day, and know that they choose to love you back, it will transform how you view those imperfections. Instead of saying "I know he loves me, but he does this," you start saying "It bothers me when he does this, but I know he loves me." Love covers a multitude of sins and flaws. 

In a word, live together in the forgiveness of your sins, 

for without it no human fellowship, 

least of all a marriage, can survive.

Dietrich Bonhoeffer 

Letters and Papers from Prison, 31

In the end, I think Brendan and I chose each other for lots of reasons, Attraction, timing, specific qualities... they all came into play. And while we don't believe in soul-mates, I think we can agree that from the moment we met each other, we chose to stop looking for another person. We chose to love each other and endure each other, til' death do us part.

This is my way of saying "you chose me" to Brendan

Don't Follow Your Heart

Sometimes people wonder why we should even bother trying if no one is perfect. Christians struggle with questions of why God created laws that He knew full well we would not be able to follow. The short answer is that by knowing these laws, we would be able to see ourselves for what we really are and understand our deep need for a savior.

A very popular motto to live by in today’s world is, “Follow your heart.” Unfortunately, what we often fail to realize is that our “heart” can sometimes deceive us. When we follow our hearts, what we are really doing is following our emotions and making impulsive decisions. For example when my husband and I are arguing and he says something hurtful, my emotions want me to make a comment that would make him hurt as badly as I do. There have been several times that I have fired back some snarky comment to avenge my wounded feelings, and many people wouldn't bat an eye, in fact some people might even encourage giving someone the “taste of their own medicine.” The problem is I know it’s wrong because God commands us to act in love, even if society doesn't see a problem in acting out of anger.

Cultural norms are always changing because we try finding ways to blur the lines between right and wrong so that we can convince ourselves that we aren't doing something that we believe we shouldn't do… but while we bargain with our conscience to try to rationalize our actions, God never changes. He has stayed the same since the beginning of time and He created these laws to stand in juxtaposition with society’s laws so that we would be able to see the stark contrast between the two and to expose the sin that we are trying so desperately to justify.

Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I have not come to call the righteous but sinners to repentance. Luke 5:31-32 

When we forget about God’s laws, we forget why Jesus came in the first place, which was to save us from the darkness in sin; but if we can’t recognize our sin, then the hope of the Gospel is obsolete. If we don’t believe that we are broken, then we have no need to be healed. God gave us the law to expose our brokenness and gave us Jesus to mend it. Following your heart can lead you down roads that you never wanted to go, but following Jesus will always lead you down the path to salvation.

Fighting the Good Fight

After spending the last several posts writing about the importance of the law of God, it is now time to acknowledge our struggles and failure to keep those laws perfectly. I have the tendency to beat myself up when I think about how often I fail to do the right thing. Sometimes I look at the way I interact with my husband and friends and I blush realizing that God sees that too. There are days and weeks where I have felt crippled underneath the weight of my sin, unable to climb out of the hole I have fallen so deeply in, becoming discouraged. While it’s good to acknowledge our shortcomings, we can’t wallow in them; we must take a stand with God against our sins and recognize our deep need of a Savior who conquered these sins for us.

In order to take a stand against the sin remaining in our lives we must be able to repeat God’s promises and victories to ourselves during our times of strife. The Letter from Paul to the Romans as a whole has made a huge impact on my life. When I began examining my life, questioning where I placed my hopes and realizing my need of a savior, my friends pointed me to Romans. As I read through Paul’s letter, the phrase, “the righteous shall live by faith,” echoed in my brain. Throughout the first chapter, I read of our tendency to suppress and ignore the truth and replace it with a love of self, as I continued reading I realized just how bleak the future was for me if I decided to continue living in the shackles of my sins. I began to realize the pointlessness in boasting in my own works because they would still fall short, and when I realized that I began to feel the weight of the problems of this world being lifted off my shoulders knowing that I have been justified in my faith, by the grace of God through Jesus’ sacrifice.

There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit of life has set you free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do. By sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin, he condemned sin in the flesh, in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit. For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. For the mind that is set on the flesh is hostile to God, for it does not submit to God's law; indeed, it cannot. Those who are in the flesh cannot please God

You, however, are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if in fact the Spirit of God dwells in you. Anyone who does not have the Spirit of Christ does not belong to him.

But if Christ is in you, although the body is dead because of sin, the Spirit is life because of righteousness. If the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit who dwells in you. Romans 8: 1-11

In our hearts we know that Christ is in us, and rest our faith in our salvation, but sometimes we mess up. When we mess up, is when the devil will swoop in and try to plant seeds of doubt in our hearts. The enemy will never come out and dangle something in our heads that we absolutely know to be false, Satan speaks in half truths. He looks for our insecurities and tries to find cracks in our foundations. When we mess up, the enemy whispers in our ears questions like, “are you really any different?” or “do you think God will love you even after all this?” To be able to fight the enemy of sin, we need to be able to say, “No, Christ paid for that,” and to be able to do that, we need to know and to be able to hold on to the promises that we have been given. This is why it is so important to read the Bible and to be able to remember scripture

Too often we let our failures define us instead of finding our worth in Christ in His victory over sin and darkness. We get so caught up keeping a running tally of our highest and lowest moments forgetting that our identity is not found in our own works, but at the foot of the Cross of Jesus who washed away our shortcomings. To be able the fight the good fight, we must keep the promises of our God close to our hearts, knowing that we are created new, we are redeemed, and we are spotless in His eyes thanks to the sacrifice of Jesus Christ.

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people. Ephesians 6: 10-18

Not about the Bunnies.

You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor. Exodus 20:16

It’s very obvious that as Christians we are commanded not to lie, but we are also commanded to speak the truth, even when it is difficult or might be offensive. It is one thing to love your neighbors, not to covet, commit adultery, and not murder or steal, but those are all things that you would expect from a normal person, but to speak the truth regardless of the outcome? That requires faith.

I have written before about my struggle between trying to fit in and trying to glorify God, and have become even more acutely aware of the disservice I am doing to the people that I love the most by bending or softening the truth and reality of their need for Jesus. I want my family and friends to feel the love I feel from God and to have the comfort in knowing that life doesn't just end, yet instead I find myself shying away from questions that might lead to some of the most meaningful conversations.

A little over a year ago, I was drowning in anxiety, depression and self-centeredness, I felt like my life was spinning out of control. At the time I had made two friends in particular who were Christians, and instead of letting me wallow in self-pity, they started to me about the Truth of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Over the next few months, I asked them a lot of difficult questions regarding issues and circumstances that I didn't feel like I understood or agreed with, and they stood anchored in their faith and continued to shine light on the truth. I began to seek the Lord because I saw their steadfast faith in trusting in God and the truth of His Word and promises, and I know that the Lord placed them in my life to lead me to him.

When I think of how I handle situations with my own friends who are not believers, I can’t say that I have always stayed rooted in truth. I have often found myself nodding silently or biting my tongue only to kick myself later for wasting such a great opportunity to shine the light of Jesus into their lives. I become increasingly aware daily how desperately I need Jesus in my life and know that the best way to love my friends is by helping them see their need for a savior too. During Easter time, I can’t help but think about all of the years I wasted thinking that the celebration was egg hunts and bunnies. I knew that Jesus had died, but had no idea what that truly meant. For the second year this year, I am able to celebrate Jesus’s resurrection and appreciate His victory for those who trust in Him over sin and death. As I rejoice in my salvation, I am reminded of how imperative it is that I declare the Truth of the Gospel to those I love as the only eternal hope they have.

Therefore, preparing your minds for action, and being sober-minded, set your hope fully on the grace that will be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ. 14 As obedient children, do not be conformed to the passions of your former ignorance, 15 but as he who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, 16 since it is written, “You shall be holy, for I am holy.” 17 And if you call on him as Father who judges impartially according to each one's deeds, conduct yourselves with fear throughout the time of your exile, knowing that you were ransomed from the futile ways inherited from your forefathers, not with perishable things such as silver or gold, 19 but with the precious blood of Christ, like that of a lamb without blemish or spot. 20 He was foreknown before the foundation of the world but was made manifest in the last times for the sake of you 21 who through him are believers in God, who raised him from the dead and gave him glory, so that your faith and hope are in God.22 Having purified your souls by your obedience to the truth for a sincere brotherly love, love one another earnestly from a pure heart, 23 since you have been born again, not of perishable seed but of imperishable, through the living and abiding word of God; 24 for
“All flesh is like grass
and all its glory like the flower of grass.
The grass withers,
and the flower falls,
25 but the word of the Lord remains forever.”
And this word is the good news that was preached to you. 1 Peter 1:13-25

Love Actually

One of the hardest, yet most important things that God commands of us is to love people. This is difficult because He isn’t commanding us to love the people that we like or people that we feel like we can even tolerate. He commands us to love all people, even the people who we normally can’t stand.

Last year, when I was just beginning my walk with the Lord, I noticed that I have a tendency of dehumanizing people that I don’t like. I found myself just being annoyed in general with people if they rubbed me the wrong way. I had no compassion nor was a genuinely happy for anyone else’s joys. I was stuck between indifference and jealousy.

You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust. For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet only your brothers, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same? You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect. Matthew 5:43-48 ESV

In the weeks leading up to Easter last year, I decided to read the gospel of Matthew to gain a better appreciation for how Jesus lived and died. As I read The Sermon on the Mount, I was struck by how my actions were going against the commandment of the God I so deeply yearned to follow. I began to pray for God to open my heart and show me how to love people as He loves them. As I prayed, He opened my eyes and made me aware of the struggles that these people that I was writing off as rude, or “just not my type of person” were going through and I began praying for these people. As I continued to pray for them, I felt myself growing fond of them.

It was a phenomenon for me as I felt myself genuinely caring for those who I had never cared for before and realized that God commands this of us to transform us to become more like him. Charles Spurgeon wrote this in his book Morning and Evening about the subject:

“He who dares the most, shall win the most; and if rough be thy path of love, tread it boldly, still loving thy neighbors through thick and thin. Heap coals of fire on their heads, and if they be hard to please, seek not to please them, but to please thy Master; and remember if they spurn thy love, thy Master hath not spurned it, and thy deed is as acceptable to him as if it had been acceptable to them. Love thy neighbor, for in so doing thou art following the footsteps of Christ.”

Loving those who we find it hard to even like, might seem like a struggle; but when I think of my worst moments and deepest secrets and realize that Christ would have still sat at the same table as me for dinner despite my failings, I realize just how deep God’s love is for us and feel compelled to try to show the love that He has for me by loving others.

The Slippery Slope

Fear the LORD your God, serve him only and take your oaths in his name. Do not follow other gods, the gods of the peoples around you. Deuteronomy 6:13–14

Often, when I think of idolatry I think of the worldly things that can get in the way of following Christ, but lately I have found that the idols I have struggled with the most are myself, and my relationships. Throughout the past few months I have felt disconnected, and had wondered why. I felt like I was doing the right things by seeking community with other Christians, joining small groups, and bearing witness to friends and family, yet still I felt disconnected, somewhat out of control and without purpose. 

This past weekend, while Brendan was in the field, I decided to go to Columbus, GA and visit my friends from my previous church, and over the course of the weekend I became aware of just how little I was serving God. When I had moved to Fayetteville from Columbus, I had felt a hole in my heart from the community of believers that I had left, and while I got involved with a church here, I constantly felt a twinge of longing to move back to Columbus. 

As I spent time with my friends, I spoke to them about my church in Fayetteville and all the blessings it has given us so far and found myself reflecting on all the miracles God has brought into our life since our move and was amazed at how quickly they had been forgotten. I realized that when I got to Fayetteville, I became self-reliant again and I basically looked to God and said, “Thanks for saving me, but I can handle it from here. I’ll find a church, find community and I’ll be ok.” My quiet time with God plummeted, and though I was talking about Him, I wasn’t really spending a lot of time talking to Him. As one of the ladies reminded me that God had placed us in Fayetteville for a reason and that we are to be lights in the world, I wondered how great of a light I had been lately. The answer was: not a very good one.

I thought about how little I just sit and read the Bible and rest in the Lord, and how often I have conversations about things I need prayer for, yet pray for those things so little. I suddenly realized how slippery the slope of idolatry was. It’s easy to recognize idolatry when you place work over God, or when you prefer to read a tabloid instead of the Bible. It gets a little less obvious when it’s as simple as basing your relationship with God on the church you attend or the relationships you have with other Christians. 

I’m not saying that going to a church and having a community of believers isn’t important. What I am saying is that it’s not important so that you feel connected and special, it’s because having Christians encouraging, loving and supporting each other makes the glory of God shine. God showed me that relationships, even with other Christians are empty unless God is at the center of them, and how impossible it is to have a God glorifying relationship with anyone unless we spend time alone with Him resting in his grace and truth.

Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the holy places by the blood of Jesus, by the new and living way that he opened for us through the curtain, that is, through his flesh, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, with our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how to stir up one another to love and good works, not neglecting to meet together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another, and all the more as you see the Day drawing near. Hebrews 10:19-25

Commandment of Freedom

When we think of the law of God, we most often think of the Ten Commandments from God, but how often do we think about what these laws mean and why they are so important? Growing up, I was never really that disobedient to my parents, I knew what the rules were and I kept them, but I didn’t really understand why they were in place. Parents put rules in place for the good of their children even though the children don’t see it at the time. God does this too, but on a completely different level. The Ten Commandments not only give us a guideline for how to live life with the Lord, but also shows us where our identity should be found.

The first four Commandments warn us against idolatry, something which so often disguises itself as a “good thing." When we think of idols, we think of Greek gods, cults, or other obscure things that it is obvious to us that they should not be put before God. We often forget that an idol is anything that we put first in our lives before God, which is why it’s so important to We have all done it at some point, one morning we wake up and find ourselves paying more attention to and putting more effort, hope into our relationships, our work, our lifestyles, and so many other fleeting idols, until suddenly, everything in our lives seems more important to God. In that moment, we stop and wonder why we feel so isolated from God. When we place these things before God, it is saying to Him, “I don’t need you, I need these things to make me happy.” God knows this isn’t true, and we learn over and over again that nothing satisfies like the love of God.

Once we put God first in our lives, we are free to follow the rest of the Commandments on how we should treat the world. When I say He frees us to follow them, what I mean is that by understanding that God is in control of everything, we are able to act out of love.

Before I became a Christian, I was always anxious and angry. When people upset me, or did something I considered immoral, I couldn’t let it go. I could not find a way to forgive them. This afternoon, I was on the phone with my grandmother who is not yet a Christian and struggles with the same emotional tendencies I have. She asked me if I had gotten any better at forgiving. I told her that I felt that I had and explained that putting my hope and trust in the Lord and knowing that he is the only one that can set things right has left me free to love people for what they offer, not scorn them for their faults.

Throughout the past few months we have been working through Hebrews, and the past few weeks we have been working through Hebrews 3 where the writer is reminding us that Jesus is greater than Moses. The Ten Commandments are a great way for us to understand how much greater Jesus is to Moses or any other prophet because while God chose Moses to deliver the Commandments to His people, Jesus lived His life in perfect accordance with those Commandments. So if we, as Christians, are to become an image of the likeness of Christ, then it only makes sense that through our love of God, these commandments not only be our Laws but our desires. God gave us these commandments not to place us within bondage but free us from the chains of earthly wants and idols to be free to love and rejoice in the grace and goodness of the Lord our God.

    My son, do not forget my teaching,

        but let your heart keep my commandments,

    for length of days and years of life

        and peace they will add to you.

    Let not steadfast love and faithfulness forsake you;

        bind them around your neck;

        write them on the tablet of your heart.

    So you will find favor and good success

        in the sight of God and man.

    Trust in the LORD with all your heart,

        and do not lean on your own understanding.

    In all your ways acknowledge him,

        and he will make straight your paths.

    Be not wise in your own eyes;

        fear the LORD, and turn away from evil.

    It will be healing to your flesh

        and refreshment to your bones.

    Honor the LORD with your wealth

        and with the firstfruits of all your produce;

    then your barns will be filled with plenty,

        and your vats will be bursting with wine.

    My son, do not despise the LORD's discipline

        or be weary of his reproof,

    for the LORD reproves him whom he loves,

        as a father the son in whom he delights.

    Blessed is the one who finds wisdom,

        and the one who gets understanding,

    for the gain from her is better than gain from silver

        and her profit better than gold.

    She is more precious than jewels,

        and nothing you desire can compare with her.

    Long life is in her right hand;

        in her left hand are riches and honor.

    Her ways are ways of pleasantness,

        and all her paths are peace.

    She is a tree of life to those who lay hold of her;

        those who hold her fast are called blessed.

    The LORD by wisdom founded the earth;

        by understanding he established the heavens;

    by his knowledge the deeps broke open,

        and the clouds drop down the dew.

    My son, do not lose sight of these—

        keep sound wisdom and discretion,

    and they will be life for your soul

        and adornment for your neck.

    Then you will walk on your way securely,

        and your foot will not stumble.

    If you lie down, you will not be afraid;

        when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.

    Do not be afraid of sudden terror

        or of the ruin of the wicked, when it comes,

    for the LORD will be your confidence

        and will keep your foot from being caught.

    Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due,

        when it is in your power to do it.

    Do not say to your neighbor, “Go, and come again,

        tomorrow I will give it”—when you have it with you.

    Do not plan evil against your neighbor,

        who dwells trustingly beside you.

    Do not contend with a man for no reason,

        when he has done you no harm.

    Do not envy a man of violence

        and do not choose any of his ways,

    for the devious person is an abomination to the LORD,

        but the upright are in his confidence.

    The LORD's curse is on the house of the wicked,

        but he blesses the dwelling of the righteous.

    Toward the scorners he is scornful,

        but to the humble he gives favor.

    The wise will inherit honor,

        but fools get disgrace.

Proverbs 3

Self-Preservation vs. Glorification

I have something to confess… I am awesome at self-preservation. I am really great at making conversation and relating to people, mostly because I want to fit in and be well liked. Lately, I have noticed myself saying certain things or acting certain ways that don’t line up with who I am in Christ. I find myself being surprised by how quickly I can become someone so ignorant of the grace God has given me, just to save face. On my good days, I see myself doing it and stop or try to turn my attention to God. On my bad days, which happen more often, I convince myself that I’m just being social and in reality I’m actually giving people a positive experience with a Christian because I’m not being judgmental and condescending.  I tell myself I’m glorifying God by nodding my head and remaining silent, when in fact I am turning my back on what I know to be true.

I have realized that we do a disservice to our friends who are not believers by making them believe that if they come to Christ, all their problems will disappear and life will be easy. Bottom line: that is not biblical and it’s certainly not true.  Throughout the Bible, especially the Book of Acts, it’s apparent following Jesus is not about what it gets you, the apostles get arrested, beaten, and killed and still they rejoiced knowing Jesus was enough.

In my life, the times when I am giving the most glory to God aren’t the days where I am successful at work, or the life of the party. The moments when I am glorifying Him, are when I bite my tongue instead of making a snappy comment at my husband, or when I share the love of Jesus Christ with someone because I want them to feel the joy that I do. Giving glory to God isn’t showing everyone how put together you are, its letting people know that  you are a complete mess and need to press in to the love of Christ to have the strength to get out of bed in the morning.

The message of the Gospel of Jesus Christ has never been that if you follow Him, things are going to work out and be fine. The Gospel of Jesus Christ is that no matter what, He is enough.  Glorifying God isn’t putting on a façade about how great your life is now that you have found Jesus. Glorifying God is setting our gaze on the hope of the Gospel. Glorifying God is acting out of love when we would prefer to act out of anger. Glorifying God is confessing how much we need Him. Glorifying God is resting in the truth that Jesus is coming back to set things right when you can’t rest in anything else. Glorifying God is pushing yourself to become closer to Him every day in hope that you will become more like Him.

Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few. Matthew 7: 13-14